After my most recent MRI scan, we were told I had relapsed. There was a new spot in a different area of my brain that could be a bit that's broken off but we don't know, because of this, my consultant wanted to do a scan on my spine to check, there was a tiny spot on my spine also so more treatment is needed now. I will start radiotherapy urgently and more chemo will be needed. The radiotherapy will be to my spine to attack that small spot before it has chance to cause any problems. This is a bit of a shock but it's nothing I haven't done before and it just means that I get to jam to my fave artists in radiotherapy again.
Relapse is a word that a cancer patient doesn't really want to hear, but if there is anyone reading this who is going through a similar situation, I will put a few tips at the end that helped me when I was told this and things that always help me if I'm worried, some are my own strategies and others are Ones that my psychologist has taught me.
Before that, I want to just say thankyou to everyone at the hospital that was with us yesterday, I don't think any of us expected it but you were all there with us and you got us through, Thank you.
Worry cars- try to visualise your worries as cars driving by, if you were stood on the side of the road, you wouldn't go and get into a random car, so don't choose a random worry to consume you, just let it drive by like a car.
Mindfulness- there are many different types of mindfulness but there are lots of apps and things online that give you mindfulness exercises to do
Distractions- this is probably the main thing that helps me, having things to distract me. This can be focusing on things that you love such as listening to your favourite music or watching your fave tv show, or just arranging a night with some friends to take your mind off everything else that's going on.
Hope this helps someone :)